Monday, January 01, 2007

Me, myself and....

I started my new year with a croak.


CROOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKKKKK....this was more or less the sound (rather noise) that ensued from my throat when I tried to sing.


Suffice to say, I’ve got a sore throat.


Not a bad idea considering the fact that my already limited speech is going to be more limited. But I will miss singing in my bathroom. Sigh.......


Spent the New Year’s eve on the beach, enjoying a boat-ride with total strangers and just watching fading sun set ablaze the turbulent sea. Even for a short period of time, the effect was mesmerizing. There’s something about the sea......what..... I wish I could put a finger on it but no, I cannot think of any other description except hypnotic. Hypnotic......and strangely peaceful.......


Long time ago when I was young (well..... I feel quite old now), one of my friends’ grandmother told me during one of our delightful chats “Never ever lie to yourself”. All of ten years, I was too young to understand the significance behind those words. Now, after more than a decade, I realize the weight of this piece of advice....and with every passing day, I realize it all the more.


I realize that I am different.....different in this respect. I am neither an ego-booster nor a morale-flogger. I never pretend to like a person, nor do I dislike anyone to the level of ignorance. I am free with my compliments because I know that I am making them known to people who really deserve it. Faking is not something with which I am comfortable. I am honest....to myself....and sometimes painfully so. I know that this would not let me go very far in my profession, but to change is like growing a new skin – one painful process indeed. I believe that the biggest hypocrite is one who lies to himself. And invariably, my friends' circle comprise of individuals who have this unique trait embedded in one or the other aspect of their lives.


Enough, this is the limit. I will put a stop to my self-indulgence of talking about myself......


Have a successful 2007.

32 comments:

Anonymous said...

Going to beaches,hills and other romantic places without a partner is not a very brilliant idea,because you should be complementing the nature which is complete.

Naturally ,I think you need a honest partner of opposite sex.

endevourme said...

oh, do we have this one more thing in common ??? :D

chitra said...

-/Anon
Well....if one can find peace in solitude, one can find peace in onself.

-/Endevourme
Howdaa? Which one..which one? :-)

Sujit said...

just be yourself.. thats the best thing :)..

Sujit said...

beach?... mangalore?

chitra said...

-/Sujit
Tee hee...one has to change for the better :-)! Oh...a beach near Mangalore....

Anonymous said...

peace in solitude....!!!
Hmmmmmmm (sigh not a moan :-))

Indian women comments:
Sushmita Sen at 31 believes marriage and love are part of a cosmic design.

Aishwarya after running around trees and cameras is running around temples.

Now you want to find peace in oneself at beaches.

Anonymous said...

well for ur loneliness my experience says
" tell me who ur friends are and I will tell you who u are"
also
" tell me what u eat and i will tell you who u are"

Now is ur best friend (Mr/Miss/Mrs D as I can remember) single or married?

GuNs said...

So what did you do this new year's eve?

LEts hear all about it. I was in London. Pics up on my blog. Kindly check [:-P]

-PeAcE
--WiTh
---GuNs

Avinash said...

Tell me about the beach.. :).. Best place to be alone or in a group of friends.

True again about being honest to oneself. Sometimes the wavelengths dont match initially. But trying to find the good things does improve the situation. But again, its your choice whether to go for it or not.. :D.. As you get older, your mind will expand. :)

endevourme said...

...that of being honest, with oneself...
btw now a days u have been running around unnecessory things,
sit back and relax, thats what is real chitra isnt it?
...like like a spider, at center of a web of thousand connections
calm, still and just observing...

The Avenger !!! said...

well chitzz you must have had an awfully good reason to take that boat trip with complete strangers isnt it!!

was i one of them ? well maybe i was :)

chitra said...

-/Anon
What a comparison I say! I am sure that Aish and Sush will be offended...

-/Anon
FYI she's married :-)!

-/GAR
I spent the New Year's eve travelling :-)! London, eh? Will check the pics...

-/Avi
Sigh...tell me all about it...

-/Endevourme
He he...spider is anytime better than Aish!

-/Avenger
You were, were you? :-)

Anonymous said...

I think you are in confusion
once you say Aishwarya will be offended and once you say spider will be offended.
Be clear I say :-).

I can't believe D is she and is married.Are you sure!
Did you attend the wedding.

What about questions of maturity and experience.

What did you learn from her wedding and how is her spouse.
Are they living together.

Oops am I going into confidentials.

chitra said...

Chitra,

Good point made. Never lie to oneself.

But so many times, we do that not with the purpose of boasting , but just to satisfy ourselves. Ofcourse, it haunts us later in our life.......

chitra said...

-/Anon
Check (once again) the comments! I definitely prefer spider :-)! Got it?

-/Chitra
Ya...for momentary pleasures one can pretend to be the Queen of England :-)!

The Avenger !!! said...

naa how i wish i was :) you would have made an interesting co traveller with your interesting chatter.

unfortunately life has this funny way of making me miss the thing i want the most (e.g. this trip of urs) so i am not suprised. :)

Gayatri said...

"Never lie to oneself" ....its a good stmt....nice 2 be a part of your companions on that day...-:)

Anonymous said...

One question is haunting me even without lying.
Does never lying to oneself mean you can lie to others.

Avinash said...

but the photo looks like from Hampi..

Viky said...

Yavdu jaga?

Anonymous said...

Yes where is the beach!

Anonymous said...

and the boat.
and the strangers.

chitra said...

-/Avenger
If not now then some other time :-)!

-/Gayatri
Heeeeeeeeeyyyy....good to see your comment. Keep visiting :-)!

-/Anon
Nope...you can lie...but lying to any person who means a lot to you is as good as lying to yourself.

-/Avi
Hoon! Hampi de....:-)

-/Viky
Phuto Hampi du. Beach irodu GokarNadalli.

-/Anon
Tee hee...GokarNa.

Rk said...

hey.....happy new year...
with strangers ? yellige hogidde..u said u wud go on a trek right ?
i have the somewhat similar feeling towards sea..i feel everytime that sea invites me into it...permanently...
i also spent eve near sea shores..had an absolutely wonderful time in goa..will write in detail
"i feel quite old now" -- this was my sentence in a different context though...
what do you do when everyone around you lies to you....u finally give up, dont you..:)
coming to the pony tail photo....nice photo...leaving behind the past year, you are looking ahead for the next year with some optimism and hope i guess... :)
also you seem to have become more healthy ?
do you know the anon(the one in the first comment and after wards) ?

chitra said...

-/RK
Nanna busmates iddru...so ashTu parichaya iralilla. As a part of beach trek, GokarNakke hogiddvi. Chennagithu. And what is this 'healthy' remark, eh? :-) Explain maaDi please....

Gayatri said...

hi! i ll visit ..but hardly i get time nw adays to post any comments ..i lost ur number..do msg/call me bak...whr r those pics??whts plan 4 weekend???

Shruthi said...

Sakkat photo... nodidarene relax aada haage aagatthe!

chitra said...

-/Gayatri
Oho...kaam bahut zyaada hai kya? Pic mera hai...was taken at Hampi. Haan...call karoongi as soon as my sore throat disappears!

-/Shruthi
Alvaa? One of my fav pics ! It was taken by a good friend of mine....

Gayatri said...

hey, packed up with too much of work for the next 6 months...handle 2 projs at a time, ll come 2 knw..-:) ..well, still ur throat prob s nt gone..well, do take care n get well soon...call me when u feel gud...ciao

Gayatri said...

mail me all those trekking pics...

chitra said...

-/Gayatri
He he..happy working! Pics eh? Have to upload it yet. Let me see if I can send some individual snapz....