Friday, April 04, 2008
If I compare thee.......
I had this thought simmering in my subconscious for quite some time. A vague thought. The spark of happiness when I thought "Hey... here's someone I like". Something very familiar, but could not put my finger on.
I was speaking to AH, who has recently gone through a very rough phase, having lost her seven month baby. Whenever I call her, I try to keep the conversation impersonal, with most topics revolving around some witticism I had witnessed, or my hilarious photo sessions ( I should surely write a post on this :-).......). Something light. Something airy. And the few times the conversations veer to something akin to self-condemnation, I used to veer her back to some silly topic.
The intention was not to get AH involved in any self-pitying mode. It is so very difficult to get out of this mode without anyone's help, and I was not sure I could actually help her out in this case if she had plunged into one of those moods. Why? Because as much as I tried, I could only offer my empathies, but not pity. Because, had I been her, I would have surely detested it!
Nothing but Aham only with respect to others but self as well.
The greatest yardstick to self, in terms of comparison, is nothing but self.
p.s: Profound realization brought about by PA..... :-)!