Friday, June 09, 2006

A matter of faith

Have been more busy than I had bargained for :). Keeping in mind Better late....than never (tee hee :)...), here's something from my archives...something which I had compiled last year. And I remember this as though this happened yesterday....

I have never been a deeply religious person.


And it’s not that I do not believe in God.


It’s just that I have never relied on God too much, unlike people who go to any length to please Him to pass exam(s), to have children, to get married.......and not necessarily in that order.


And unlike most, I do not even make God a scapegoat for all my 'earthly' problems.


So, the previous evening, I was experiencing one of those perfectly blank moments during which I was thinking – why do people believe in God?


And while I meandered through the well-trodden paths, the power went kaput.


There’s nothing to be afraid of the dark. Yet, I experienced a momentary feeling of disorientation – a sense of being lost. I could sense a sudden tension stiffen my limbs as my eyes searched in the gloom for something .....what..... I did not know. Memories which I thought that I had suppressed threatened to burst forth in full flow.


It was at this moment that my glance was drawn to the faint glow of light emanating from the kitchen – it was from the single lamp lit for God. When surrounded by darkness, there was so much of comfort derived from that single source of light that my tension evaporated. And I felt immensely relieved.


At this precise moment I understood why I believe in God....and my faith was re-affirmed.

19 comments:

Sujit said...

yup its on your faith!.. to bring back to what you are!.. god is like the control effort to make your feedback loop of life work proper..!! hehe!!

chitra said...

-/Sujit
Tee hee...pakka SE neenu :)!

Sujit said...

saturday kelasa unta?

chitra said...

-/Sujit
Illwallaa..!

Sujit said...

hmm.. good.. weekend hegiTu?..

Flying Solo Since 1982 said...

even i dont believe in god ... well i dont knw if there is any gud he has done to me..to u ..or to any of us... we ourselves r makin our lives miserables... he doin doin nothin..but smiling... lol... respect... loner...

chitra said...

-/Sujit
Chennagithu !

-/Solo since 1982
Well...it's a personal belief..God or human...I think that it's left to us to do something about our lives rather than relying on God all the time?

endevourme said...

u are a really good writer :)

chitra said...

-/Endevourme
For once, I will be just myself and accept the compliment as it is without questioning the (intended?) sarcasm behind it...so, thanks !

Khushi said...

:-)

endevourme said...

hey i really liked the post, its beautiful.
so i am appreciating ur writing skills,
and u say i am being sarcastic(?)

chitra said...

-/Khushi
:D

-/Endevourme
Tee hee...nope! I am actually accepting your compliment :)! No offence meant..:)!

Pritika Gupta said...

gud post..

Phoenix said...

it's just a matter of faith.
i believe the name 'god'. or any of its various forms is just an attempt at personification, or concret-isation of a concept, of a deeper feeling of belief, in self and humanity.
u may call Him anything, or nt believe in Him at all, but it's only a mater of faith, whichever way u express it.
I believe even if u want to love and trust ur parents, its because u have faith in them and ur love, and this love is God

chitra said...

-/Pritika
Hey Thanks!

-/Phoenix
Ya...very true...just a personification of your belief!

lakshana said...

hmmm.. well.. i used to wonder abt this too.. i guess we all have our own sources of energy to keep us going or to let us not loose hope.. :)

chitra said...

-/Lakku
Ya...hope's what keeps us going most of the time :)!

Annu said...

Good one...:)

chitra said...

-/Annu
Hey...thanks!