Friday, July 07, 2006

Tomorrow never dies

Two misses and one near miss has resulted in deep exhaustion so much that I'm afraid that I'll fall asleep even if I do so much as blink.


Positives: I never knew I had it in me to handle things all alone and especially one as critical as this. Not that the thought of having a shoulder to lean on did not cross my mind. But at that point, any action concerning this thought was beyond me. But what the last couple of weeks did teach me was something which I had not acknowledged in the past - live life as if there's no tomorrow enjoying the good things in life without any grudges; one can never predict what tomorrow has in store.


Negatives: A new high in the stress factor has left me feeling quite drained both emotionally and physically. And slightly unfeeling in my day-to-day life in my effort to remain normal....and out of which I have to extraticate myself as soon as I can.


All I wish now is for a quiet corner to crawl into and slip into a dreamless sleep....or talk to someone who can listen....or bawl my lungs out.Unfortunately, the present circumstances and long-standing experience deny me all the three....at least for now.


To hark back to the past where I could afford the luxury of tears whenever I wished.......

11 comments:

Suresh said...

Your post's are always thought provoking.

Hmm...it might sound a little cliche'd but yeah...Time will heal it...the worst will come to pass...

My Best Wishes are with you.. :)

ritzkini said...

Tension tego beda KaNey...YeNNe hodi,maja maDu...
It's when you think too much,that problems seem to appear...
Eat,drink...and be 'meri'...
:D

Sujit said...

When things get tough, and you dont have a shoulder to lean on you will realize that you are much stronger than what you think you are!.. when the situation comes only then we know the strength of our inself!.. hope what you discovered about yourself.. in is light always!..

Stress at work, happens sometimes and depending the work and its results, affects us badly.... your bugs come to light and you will have great time.. very soon :)

Dont worry things will be fine!.although easy to say!.. but hope you put on a strong hold!

Tears are a weapon to get repief as the grief turn its turn!.. but not always should be!.. you can turn yourself as a shield!.. Ah!.. I am confused!

endevourme said...

these days too will go :-)
...as it has happened always in the past

Avinash said...

try to divert ur mind madam.. no point in getting emotional and sobbing. Do what is needed to be done and get along with ur life. let me know if u need help.

Shruthi said...

The best past is that it makes you feel good when you realize that you have it in you to get through this!
And you will not realize it right now, but it makes you stronger too! :D
Chin up, and keep having fun! :)

chitra said...

-/Suresh
Thanks...both for the compliment and the assurance!

-/Kini
Tee hee...that's applicable vonly to you machaa!! Me facing the hard way..:D!!

-/Sujit
Hyuck hyuck....no more than me..no more than me....

-/Endevourme
Ya...ya...as long as the future is not as bad as this....

-/Avi
Hey...thanks!

-/Shruthi
Yuppu...me finding new ways and avenues to do that :D :D !

endevourme said...

hmmm...
u feel THAT low?
vokay....make a wish, and let me know,
i will approve... :-)

Sujit said...

how are you now!.. has the week the end.. brough so huge showers of relief?

chitra said...

-/Endevourme
Hyuck hyuck...if only the problems could be solved by wishes alone...

-/Sujit
Huge to nahi..but yup...relief is pretty much evident!

Jim said...

Cool blog. However I am looking for info on Mesothelioma or Mesothelioma Lawyers. I would also like to find info on Asbestos and Asbestos Lawyers