Two misses and one near miss has resulted in deep exhaustion so much that I'm afraid that I'll fall asleep even if I do so much as blink.
Positives: I never knew I had it in me to handle things all alone and especially one as critical as this. Not that the thought of having a shoulder to lean on did not cross my mind. But at that point, any action concerning this thought was beyond me. But what the last couple of weeks did teach me was something which I had not acknowledged in the past - live life as if there's no tomorrow enjoying the good things in life without any grudges; one can never predict what tomorrow has in store.
Negatives: A new high in the stress factor has left me feeling quite drained both emotionally and physically. And slightly unfeeling in my day-to-day life in my effort to remain normal....and out of which I have to extraticate myself as soon as I can.
All I wish now is for a quiet corner to crawl into and slip into a dreamless sleep....or talk to someone who can listen....or bawl my lungs out.Unfortunately, the present circumstances and long-standing experience deny me all the three....at least for now.
To hark back to the past where I could afford the luxury of tears whenever I wished.......