Monday, March 13, 2006

Taken for granted?

Two of my very close friends are getting married in May. Alternating between pangs of lonliness and frustration, I am feeling happy for them; I wish them the best for their future. As a side-effect, I feel that the distance between us would also be increased, and I am not just referring to the physical instance. And with every passing day, this train of thought makes me yuxtremely morose.... :(.


Bhopu had come home (unexpectedly) on Sunday supposedly to check if I was still in the dumps. I guess it was just a cover-up since he was more interested in cleaning out baaLehaNNu kesaribaath. I guess he deciphered the fact that I prepared it as a sure sign to recovery. Sigh........... wish it was true!!


I am not going to rant that ‘he was there when I needed him’ blah blah blah. On the contrary, he – like most of my friends – used to complain that I never called him up. And I used to smile it away (as usual). With a sinking feeling, I realized that this would perhaps be the last time that I would be talking with him this degree for frankness. After May, he would belong to someone else. And I would have to slowly reverse all that familiarity built over several years. All that trust and affection which had steadily increased........


And Aki? Sigh.....after May, whom would I get baaLekaayi dose for during lunch? To whom would I complain about most things? With whom shall I discuss all girly stuff? Whom shall I watch bakwaas movies with? To whom shall I teach new recipes? With whom shall I spend long hours slowly sipping tea? Who will give me company to roam Commercial Street? Who will berate me that I think a lot?


Siiiiiigggghhhhhhhh....... it would be back to e-mails/phone-calls. Not that these modes of communication are not comforting....but...somehow, I would miss the comfort and support of their presence.


So, as I listened to the last strains of "Tanha Dil" (Shaan), I seriously contemplated putting this ad up:

Wanted (desperately): a shoulder to cry on............

15 comments:

Jay said...
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Khushi said...

hmm :)
so many equations change with time...

chitra said...

-/Khushi
Wahi to...re-adjustment takes time :( !

Grandebelf said...

available at 150$ an hour!

chitra said...

-/Grandbelf
Ayyo....romba costly !!

Grandebelf said...

we can renogotiate:)

ritzkini said...

Once you are done with the crying and the shoulder...
and want to booze the night away...call me...
Cant handle women crying..
Can so not handle drunk women,either..but..am willing to take the chance on that one !
:))

PS:Chill...town hall edhoorgade saayankaala koothkondre inthaa vishiyaa ne ansodhu...teppagu manega hogu !
:))

AA said...

hey chitra, come on.... maduve aagihodre yaaroo doora horaTu hogalla. ninna friend Aki yaaro bereyaLu aagibiDalla. haagellaa yochne maaDbeDa... sumne eneno tale keDiskoteeya! omme ninna maduve aadamele gottaagatte... ninna friends kaDe attitude (and time spent) nalli bahaLa enu difference aagihogalla anta.
ok? now cheer up! :)

Rk said...

Just 1 Ques.. Do Bhopu and Aki read this blog ?
Btw, Ritzkini's comment is awesome...just what I was about to tell.

chitra said...

-/Grandebelf
Sheesh....does everything come at a price?? :)

-/Kini
Townhall aa?? Nope...no need to go that far.....:). Danks for all the words machaa !!

-/AA
Nahhiinnnn....nanna maDuve vishaya ninnindanoo barabkeaa?? :):) Anyway thanks kaNe. OnderaDu dina aadamele yella sari hogatthe....allivarege naanu hinge :)!

-/RK
Yup! Yake?? Doubtaa?? :)

Grandebelf said...

Everything has a price!

chitra said...

-/Grandebelf
Hmmm....is it so?

Anonymous said...

chal akela chal akela chal akea...
tera mela peeche choota rahi chal akela....

A beautiful song by Mukesh, apt for everyone in this phase of life. Alas, every friend has to go her/his own way... sad but true.

chitra said...

-/Anon
Sigh.........!

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